30th Oct 07 - Calm & Peaceful
Today seems to be a very calm day then usual. Its so rare that I can log in to blog in office (which I should not have done so). Anyway, what should I talk about? Since in office, let's talk about work. I have 2 words which flashed into my mind for describing myself now i) Incapable. ii) Inefficient. I guess the 2 descriptions fit me nicely as it causes the 'downfall' of my role in the team. Anyway I should feel happy in another way is that, the next person taking over has the situation changed to their advantage because of the lesson or obstacles which I faced ( guinea pig) when I am handling. For instance, the lanes which I used to handle, is almost very difficult to handle alone. I am not saying its not possible, but it is very tedious due to the heavy volume and all the documentations to be carried out concurrently. But now, these lanes are no longer handled alone, staffs were assigned to assist on the documentations while only correspondences are required. These helped significantly as it saved up to 40% to 50% of the time consumed. So these lanes are no longer as stressed as the past. It is definitely much more easier to handle.
Anyway, I felt so utterly disappointed in myself. I almost lost all my confidence. Perhaps if I don't fail myself, these changes might not even be implemented. If I am able to sustain, I will be continuing to struggle. So to think positively, my failure brought the success of the other person and brought relieve to myself. So should the person whom take over my role thank me??? Haha.. (Naive!!) Anyway it is definitely a challenge to handle the lanes which I used to handle, as the 2 lanes are considered 2 of the most important lanes in South East Asia for O&G business. Now I have been handed over new lanes, but my volume is perhaps 30% lower than the past. I guess my incapability shows I can only handled this much of volume. I knew very well, once an opportunity is lost, you will not be able to retrieve back. And with the new implementation of the work process flow, my colleague whom take over me will definitely do very much better than myself. Of course, he has proven his capabilities to everyone before he was considered to be the next candidate to take over. I have strong faith in him to succeed with flying colours.
I have failed in my past duties, but I hope I can be in any assistance to them for their success.
Anyway, I felt so utterly disappointed in myself. I almost lost all my confidence. Perhaps if I don't fail myself, these changes might not even be implemented. If I am able to sustain, I will be continuing to struggle. So to think positively, my failure brought the success of the other person and brought relieve to myself. So should the person whom take over my role thank me??? Haha.. (Naive!!) Anyway it is definitely a challenge to handle the lanes which I used to handle, as the 2 lanes are considered 2 of the most important lanes in South East Asia for O&G business. Now I have been handed over new lanes, but my volume is perhaps 30% lower than the past. I guess my incapability shows I can only handled this much of volume. I knew very well, once an opportunity is lost, you will not be able to retrieve back. And with the new implementation of the work process flow, my colleague whom take over me will definitely do very much better than myself. Of course, he has proven his capabilities to everyone before he was considered to be the next candidate to take over. I have strong faith in him to succeed with flying colours.
I have failed in my past duties, but I hope I can be in any assistance to them for their success.
posted by Terrance at 11:18 AM
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